Becoming…

Lately, I’ve felt like I’m in a beautiful space. Some of the things I’ve been praying for are finally coming into fruition, and my heart overflows with gratitude. It feels like a new beginning. But as with all beginnings, something must end.

Endings are bittersweet. The joy of stepping into something new, while unknown, brings excitement, but it can also bring fear and longing. Because while things are changing for the better, there’s always a pull toward what was. The comfort. The familiarity. The safety.

In this season, I feel like God is teaching me how to hold both. To carry joy and pain at the same time. To celebrate answered prayers in my career and relationships, while also holding the weight of family struggles and the heartbreak of what others and the world at large are going through.

Some days I feel like I’m soaring, other days I feel like I’m stumbling. But through it all, I’m learning to keep joy at the center, to keep my emotions in check, and to anchor myself in the promises of God.

If I’m honest, one of the hardest parts has been staying present with the people I love. With everything going on, it’s easy to feel like I’m chasing life instead of leading it. And that can leave me anxious, overwhelmed, and stretched thin.

So I’m striving and learning to become more intentional with all things. My time, my discipline, my habits, and even the small things like how I scroll social media, budget, and fuel my body. It’s cliché but true: new levels require new versions of ourselves. And for me, that looks like shedding the mindsets, conversations, and relationships that no longer serve me, and embracing the responsibility of the season I’m in.

That means deepening my prayer life. Studying the Word more diligently. Being a faithful steward of the gifts God has placed in my hands from relationships and finances to ideas, businesses, and even this platform, Soul & Society (my baby).

I’ve always believed I could have it all: an intimate relationship with God, a loving marriage, family, friendships, businesses. While I am not there yet, I want to build the habits now to handle what I’ve been given. Because we can’t ask God for more if we’re neglecting what’s already in our hands.

So I’m saying goodbye to the version of me I’ve grown to love, but hello to the woman God is calling me to be. Learning to hold the grief of who I was and the joy of who I’m becoming. Letting go of what no longer aligns, slowing down to trust God’s timing, and practicing the art of presence by not constantly rushing to the next thing.

It sounds simple, but it takes a lifetime to learn. Still, I’m committed to the journey. And as always, I invite you to walk it with me.